The Power of Doubt - one shot of happy/two shots of sad
The Buddha resolved that dilemna by encouraging a space of "not knowing." Cultivate "the faith to doubt."
You must doubt deeply, again and again, asking yourself who the subject of hearing could be. Pay no attention to the various illusory thoughts and ideas that may occur to you. Only doubt more and more deeply, gathering together in yourself all the strength that is in you, without aiming at anything or expecting anything in advance, without intending to be enlightened and without even intending not to intend to be enlightened; become like a child within yourself...--17th Century Zen master Taksui
Love this. Thanks Brittian