anger
Several things have happened this past year that are just shitty. No way around it. In some cases I have been deeply hurt and disappointed by a person I love, others are just the normal bad things that happen and the rest are scary health things. I am now finding myself very angry.
I have never felt this much anger - ever - and I don’t know what to do with it. I know anger is a secondary emotion and I can identify the primary emotions but I still feel angry and I still don’t know how to stop feeling angry. And now, my anger is spilling over in surprising ways at very inopportune times often involving a lot of uncontrollable crying (which I hate and then makes me angry lol). I kicked the dashboard of the truck this morning (HARD) because the optometrist gave me bad info and I wasn’t able to get my new contacts and without a car, it’s hard to get back there which made me angry about not having a car which made me angry at our financial situation which made me angry at my husband…which led to a surprising smash with my boot on the dash. FUCK.
*sigh. Welcome to my fucked up world boys and girls - ‘aint it grand?
